The Feel Good Idea Of The Day: Celebrate the New Year Quietly

Yesterday morning I began to wonder what the heck am I going to do for New Year's Eve?  I texted one of my friends to ask her what she was up to, and she replied that her and her family are heading up to a lake cabin to spend the weekend.  I welcome that sane and healthy reply.  In fact, I was a bit envious, "why didn't I think of that?" I asked myself.  I notice that my go-to thought or expectation about New Year's Eve is that, well…I have to party, and act wild or something.  

The last two New Year's Eve celebrations have been anything but a party.  They have been very quiet, consisting of Marc, his elderly Mother (who has since moved to assisted living,) Woody the Dog, and Me.  The first year I experienced a quiet New Year's "party" my companions said things like, "Geez, Jill, this must be pretty boring, being with a bunch of tee-totallers on New Year's Eve…"  The first year I welcomed the change, it was exciting to be out in the country with my beloved.  The second year I was going thru the motions, I didn't have much gas or desire to do anything.  We were care-taking for Marc's mother and it was increasingly stressful.  "Going thru the motions" is an understatement.  We had persevered thru Christmas and there wasn't much thought put into a New Year's Eve Celebration.

My last New Year's Eve I spent partying was pretty ridiculous.  My friends and I rode in the back of a truck after the bar closed to attend the end of the night party.  Lots of booze was promised AND a pool table.  This is one of the only pictures I have from the night, Thank God it's a good one. 

I remember the New Year's Day after the big party.  I didn't feel good.  I felt sick.  I felt lonely.  I wasn't excited about the impending New Year.

What will it be like this year?  I feel much more healthy in my life.  I feel like I am thriving. So why is there a part of me that wonders: If I stay home and have a delicious meal with my fiancé, watch a movie, and go to bed, wellam I missing out on something more exciting?

This year I give myself permission to Celebrate the New Year Quietly.  I give myself permission to cozy up to my safe, healthy, albeit messy, and lovely life and have a relaxing evening with those I love.  I may play around with my tarot cards and do some readingsor use my beads to make something pretty.

Will you join me in celebrating quietly?  Let me know what you're up to, Feel Good Crew.  Weave your story into this tapestry by commenting below.  I wish all of you a Happy New Year.  My next post will be about exploring the upcoming new year.